Analytically Sound

I spend the majority of my days locked in an intense mind battle.

I never win. I never lose. I just fight.

I've always thought that the answer to a problem was just one good thought process away, but the older I get, the more I realize that there's a distinct possibility that sometimes there isn't an answer. There are very few certainties, and gray areas tend to exist much more frequently than the black and the white.

I've come to recognize lately that I live my life in fear. My faith tells me that fear doesn't come from God. Therefore, fear is not what He desires for us.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

Joshua 1:9

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."

2 Timothy 1:7

I can analyze my life until I'm blue in the face, but the truth that I'm slowly coming to is that the longer I analyze, the more fearful I become. The more possibilities and answers I come up with only illustrate more ways I can screw up...and it freaks me out.

I think I'll stop thinking.

In other news, tomorrow I'm going to get set up to be a substitute teacher. I'm excited to have to opportunity to save some money and get out of the house more often! Life is going well...we celebrated my little bro's 22nd birthday yesterday (I can't believe he's 22), and April showers are in full pour, which means May flowers are just around the corner! I love good weather!

Hope all is well with everyone!

Love and peace,

Amelia

P.S. Check out Soul Pancake. Though I don't agree with all its religious views, and I'm trying to analyze less, I think this website is worth checking out. It's important to know what we believe, how we think, and who we are. Asking hard questions sucks sometimes, but the results are worth it. :-) Plus, the founder of the website and main author of the book is Rainn Wilson from The Office...I love that show!